I Couldn't Stop Rear-Ending People!

Can I get a "that's what she said", from any of my devoted Church of Michael Scott followers?

But really, that's all I dreamt about last night, and it was crazy disturbing.  The night before last, I absolutely could not fall asleep.  The harder I tried, the more wide awake I felt, which was really ridiculous because I was exhausted.  I finally dropped off around 6 in the morning and woke up around 10:30.  Last night I was nervous about whether I'd be able to fall asleep, so after the somewhat surreal experience of watching the second to last Tonight Show with Conan O'Brien, I stayed up and read until about two when it felt like I was really fighting off sleep.

Happily, I was asleep within about thirty minutes of closing my eyes, but what followed was dream after dream featuring a faulty brake pedal and one run in after another with the disgruntled victims of my driving malfunctions.  It was the most frustrating dream--I would press as hard as I could on the brake pedal, but try as I might the car would not come to a full stop.  The car would slow down a little, but not enough to prevent me from careening into the car in front of me.  At one point, I caused a chain reaction accident involving six cars in front of me.  My subconscious does not screw around.

Anyway, generally speaking, my dreams don't really stick with me once I wake up, and I'm not usually much of one for dream analysis.  But for some reason, this dream really struck a chord with me.  I'm still mulling over my feelings about this dream in my own head, and I hesitate to even write them here because I don't know if words of advice (however wise, kind and well intended) are what I want or need right now.

It's safe to say that I do spend a lot of time questioning the path down which my life is going right now.  Not my relationships with people, but questioning my life choices, my future career possibilities, my "time line", my schooling and so on.  Wondering if I'm making choices because they're what I want or if it's because they're what seem the most appropriate from the outside looking in.

My life is in such a state of flux right now, and it seems like a poor time to be making big decisions about the future.  But sometimes it just isn't possible or realistic to take life a day at a time.  Sometimes you do have to think ahead a few months or a few years.  I'm not sure what my brain was trying to tell me last night, but today I'm feeling very unsettled.  And I just really, really hope that dream car accidents aren't reported to your insurance, because if so, our premium is going to skyrocket.

Comments

[Old Warrior]

If you really think about all of the moving stresses and life changes you've gone through over the last few months, ramming some dream cars while in your speeding out of control dream car is not very surprising.

[Jenn]

I've had that dream before! And it's when I'm crazy overwhelmed. It's either that or dreams about tsunamis, and sometimes in my dreams I just scream at people non-stop.

[Lynn]

HA! It sounds like you feel like you're careening through life and you can't stop it. I think we all feel like that at some point.

As for making big decisions, hey, the best any of us can do is make the best decision we can based on the information that we have at the time. Do you think we would have bought a house only to live in it for two years AND have the market crash? Hell no. But we got a renter and made it work. Word.

Things will be fine, promise. And there's a bar downtown that has the best Lowcountry shrimp and grits that I have EVER had. Can't say anything about the drinks, but I bet they're good too!

[Kim]

Can I get a "that's what she said", from any of my devoted Church of Michael Scott followers? - hahaha, love it!

[Kate P]

Oh, man, scary dreams are rough. I have heard that driving a car in a dream is about trying to control one's life. Sounds as if what you're feeling is totally normal, and your psyche is trying to work it all out. One day at a time, things will settle down. I'm sure of it. (For a little while, anyway.)

BTW I still have dreams about missing the school bus, so if you drive by, would you mind giving me a ride to school?