I Really Shouldn't Be Here

I'm so not in the mood to be at work today, and I really don't think the world is in the mood for me to be at work today.  Reasons:

1)  I got splashed by a taxi while I was walking to work because I was trying to avoid a puddle.  Hey, Alanis?  Would you consider that ironic?

2)  When I sat down at my desk I snagged my tights and they had to be trashed.  Luckily I randomly decided that leg shaving was in order yesterday, however, now I am quite cold and not looking forward to the walk back to the station.

3)  I haven't been able to focus on anything, and just when I got into the groove on one of my spreadsheets, my 1 and 4 key stopped working on the number pad of my keyboard.  The 1 and 4 above the letters work fine, but do you know how annoying it is to be clickity clacking along, entering your data, and then are taken totally out of your element when you have to reach all the way across to the other end of the keyboard?  It is excrutiatingly, painfully annoying!  And there are lots of 1's and 4's in my spreadsheet.

4)  Just because.  Is it Friday yet?

I know this is just an example of another week that will seem to be dragging by while I'm living it, but I'll look back on it in a few months and think about how life has just flown by recently.  I'm trying not to wish these final days leading up to the wedding away, but it's growing increasingly difficult to pay attention at work or think about anything other than when the florist will call me back, whether or not my dress will still fit, and if my Nordstrom order will arrive in time for the rehearsal dinner and bachelorette party next week.

Still, I am truly relishing each day that passes between now and November 24th.  I just keep thinking about how quickly the past year has slipped through my fingers, and how that one wedding day will be over in the blink of an eye.  I know that a marriage isn't just about the wedding, and that it's how you live together in the days after that count, but even so, after spending 25 years of my life dreaming about My Big Day, and laboring for the past year over all of the plans and details and checklists, it is inconceivable that in just 12 days my wedding will be a thing of the past.  (INCONCEIVABLE!)

I'm so ready to be married, I'm so ready to be Colby's wife and partner for life, but I must admit, I'm also ready to wear a beautiful dress, to spend a day bing pampered and treated like a queen, and to spend hours that will fly by all to quickly with the family and friends who have taken the time out of their own lives to celebrate with us.
 

Comments

[RisibleGirl]

Oh- I hope I don't have lunch plans tomorrow so we can get together (although I'm not very sure about this weather... the hair! The hair!)

Sounds like quite a day- but boy do you have lots of great things to look forward to, eh? (I'm not talking about lunch- tee hee)

[Girl, Dislocated]

Maybe this is just you getting your bad luck out of the way before the wedding. Like making sure you've met the monthly mishap quota way in advance!

I give you a lot of credit for working at all this week, even if your thoughts are elsewhere!

[Jass]

I so feel you on the is it Friday yet?!

Your countdown is really exciting, and for me it's a reminder that I'll be a year older. Closer and closer to the awesome 30's everybody is talking about. Not. ;-)

I can't wait to see the wedding pictures! You better not take a whole month to show lady. Sooo excited for you little soon to be married lady!

=)

[Becky]

I bet they might have an extra keyboard for you, in case those numbers don't fix themselves. Sorry for the tights -- what a bummer. Now it's only 11 more days:)

[Ashlie]

After all that planning and prep, sometimes "real life" can be a let-down after the big day. Try to plan something special a couple weeks after your wedding/honeymoon. It made the post-wedding blues much more tolerable for me :) Congrats!

[Fraulein N]

It's sweet that you're looking forward to the day itself, and not in a somebody-smack-that-Bridezilla-DOWN kind of way. As long as you've got everything in perspective, and you clearly have, you might as well enjoy this day you've planned for so long to the fullest.

[elysa]

loved "Hey, Alanis? Would you consider that ironic?" made me laugh out loud.

Your big day is coming sooo soon! How exciting.