Spinning My Wheels

Before I turned in my separation paperwork I had so many fears surrounding what would come next.  whether or not I should take this secure, fairly well paying job and toss it out the window, hoping that my English Lit degree and previous work experience would catch me on the way down.  When I spoke to my boss about my desire to separate and when I turned in my package, I felt a drop in my stomach and heard the little voice inside saying, "Are you sure? Really?  I mean, don't you want to think about this some more?"

Can I now take this moment to say, I didn't realize just how sure I really was!  Every day drags by without a response from the Personnel Center on my approval or disapproval and I find myself stalking my separations clerk, asking if she's heard anything back yet.  I think if I'm not careful she's going to just up and throw the fax machine at my head one of these days.  I'm just so ready to get my approval back and start going through our transition programs, sending out resumes, making moving plans... and each day that goes by is one less day that I'll have to wrap my head around the fact that I need to completely change my life in the next 6 months.

Added pressure to all of this is that Colby is deploying for four months in November and won't be back until the end of February or so... which is when I'll be separating if my application is approved.  Which means we have a LOT of details and plans to be made in the next couple of months.  Because while I'll probably be able to hear from him a decent amount while he's deployed, I doubt we'll be able to have long intensive discussions involving moving plans and me wheedling him to upgrade to a two bedroom apartment.  (Hi, Colby, have you thought about that at all?  Just a thought... Jack and Ellie think it's a great idea too... Kisses!)

So, in other news, is anyone even the slightest bit shocked that Kate Hudson and her husband are splitting up?  I've thought he was pretty disgusting ever since I heard that he didn't want Kate to get pregnant again because he didn't like having a fat wife.  And just recently she's made a comment to the effect that she didn't expect monogamy in a marriage, but she would never disrespect her husband by straying.  Ummm... huh??  Oh well, I think she's adorable and maybe this way she'll finally be able to hook up with Ben Barry... or um, I mean, Matthew McConaughey!

Comments

[baggage]

I second guessed myself a million times, even though I HATED being in. It's scary. But you'll be fine!!

[wordnerd]

I'm not really familiar with all the military red tape, so I guess I'm surprised that you have to get approval to leave. Here's hoping that it all comes thru for you -- sounds like you've given it a lot of thought. Here's to the start of a new journey!

[Nap Queen]

Although I don't know much about the military, I do know about trying to make a life change. After 5 years at my current job, I'm trying to make a complete and total career change. I never really picked my career, it just sort of fell into my lap....5 years later I realize it is NOT for me. It's scary and hard but I choose to believe it will be worth it in the long run :)

About Kate Hudson, I never heard that CR said that about her getting pregnant!!! That is disgusting. If that's true, I'm glad she's getting rid of him, but I wish she'd cut that kid's hair!

[Airhead]

Oh man . . . I know how you feel. Except I'm already sending out applications . . . just because a job is offered doesn't mean you have to take it . . .

[Sarah]

Oh my gosh how FUNNY!!!!!! I was SOOOO going to blog about Kate Hudson getting together with Matthew McC!!!!!!!!! What can I say, great minds think alike my dear, great minds think alike!

[Becky]

I'm honestly surprised they lasted this long. She may have gained weight when she was pregnant, but she lost it really fast. What an ass. I agree, she had great chemistry with Ben Barry.

[shpprgrl]

I would sorta HATE her if she stole MattM from me. K?

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