Well, in news of the weird and unexplained (ha!), I'm still feeling exceptionally thundercloudish and unthrilled with the male species today, but I've decided that I shall combat that moodiness by forcing myself to talk about the enjoyable things that have been going on in my life lately. Because believe it or not I really don't walk around all day with a permanent scowl on my face and a woe is me attitude. In all actuality, I think if you were to hang out with me or talk to me outside of the "blawgy world" you wouldn't even know how downtrodden and depressed I've been lately--unless your name is Colby and you have to listen to my whining and crying every blessed night, in which case thank you, I appreciate the fact that you haven't sent the men in little white coats to get me yet because seriously, I scare MYSELF sometimes. Yeah, so I pride myself on my "fake it till you make it" or "turn that frown upside down" attempt at living, and typically only become morose and downtrodden once I step through the door of my apartment and no longer have to put on an act for anyone.
I don't feel that proper attention has been paid to the IMMENSE amount of fun that I had when I was home for Shani's Wedding And Related Festivities (as I have taken to calling the weekend). I had so much fun there that it almost completely took my mind off of all boy drama, and that is a major, MAJOR accomplishment. I love how spending time with Shani and her sister and my sister we can go months without seeing each other, or even talking very much, and then as soon as we're together again we slip right back into all of our "roles" and have an amazing time. Starting Wednesday night when I arrived in town it was literally non-stop partying and celebrating through Friday night. I rolled straight into the aforementioned bachelorette party where we started drinking and didn't quit all weekend--that's how I knew I was home. There was never a lack of food or alcohol present to get us through the day! Thursday was spent running errands and then on to the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner that we all mainly napped through with brief interruptions for ingesting chocolate covered strawberries. Friday morning kicked off with the beautiful bridesmaids' brunch (how do you like that alliteration!) complete with mimosas, stuffed french toast and devilled eggs (which didn't last long) among zillions of others delicious treats. And of course the beautiful wedding and amazingly fun reception that night, followed by crazy, insane after party, that I honestly remember very little of...
Saturday I spent the day sleepy and grouchy but pulled myself together enough for a night of food and karaoke at the parent's house--my sister and I were pretty much the only people shameless enough to jump up and belt it out in front of everyone, but my mom eventually joined us toward the end, and I've got to say, we would have put the Supremes to shame! Sunday I dragged myself out of bed later than expected, after an alarm malfunction, and headed over to Lafayette where I met up with some other fantastic friends that I don't get to see nearly enough of all the way up here in the North-country. We had a fantastic brunch--over mimosas, of course!--and even more fantastic conversation. I managed to stay awake for the entire drive home and didn't death spiral even once! That night began the descent into depression, but up until then, life was really, REALLY awesome for about two weeks...
And then of course, Heather B opened my eyes to the Kate Spade sample sale (going on through tomorrow!!) and I managed to pick up a $175 bag for only $79... if that can't make you smile, I don't know what can!! It's so squeezably, kissably cute... and I don't ever have to wait for it to call!
And in the category of Things To Look Forward To, I have my promotion on Friday, my parents coming up for a visit on the weekend of the Fourth of July, and probably most thrillingly, the visit to NYC in just one month and five days!! I'm of course ever so excited to be seeing my sister and getting to hang out in The Big Apple (or The Big Tomato), but on top of that I plan on catching up with an old friend that I haven't seen in ages and hopefully meeting up with a "new" friend that I've known forever through this new fangled innernet thing.
So, you see, even though I'm having trouble seeing past all of the crap that's been hitting lately, I do realize that there are good things in my life and I'm making an attempt to make that my focus rather than the negativity that I've been fixating on over the past few months. The thing is though, I was talking to a friend the other night and I made what I feel like is a pretty good point. It's really not that I need a man to be happy, because I can see how my life is pretty great without one. I don't feel like I need a man by my side to be complete, but damned if they don't have a way of making me UNhappy.
I think I'll stick with my Kate's and my Coaches... they've never once made me cry anything but tears of sheer joy and it takes absolutely no brainwaves to understand how they function. I'd much rather have something cost me money than happiness!!
I don't even really like purses, and that one is so freaking cute!
Posted by: sophie | June 15, 2006 at 03:11 AM
Well, I was going to say pretty much what Sophie said. That is one incredibly precious purse. I'm still using a 7 or 8 year old blah black leather that won't wear out and I don't really have the personality to pull off a cute one, but, man, I see how you had to have it.
Posted by: AC | June 15, 2006 at 01:55 PM
"Fake it 'til you make it" is how I survive as well, and it's working great for me!
Great bag.
Posted by: Jane | June 15, 2006 at 10:30 PM
My Coaches make me smile on bad days too lol, but what I really need is Mr. Vuitton. I'll never be sad again. LOL
Posted by: Kristen | June 16, 2006 at 05:12 AM
Yeah, OK, so how about (a) your bag is adorable, (b) you are SO cute, and (c) HAVE FUN with your promotion! Seriously, I had pink napkins, plates, and glitter at mine, and my flight got me Disney princess and Lisa Frank gear. And the party the next day? Included having drinks with the wing commander. And it was a BLAST!
Do what you do, sugar :-)
Posted by: Lt Airhead | June 16, 2006 at 11:07 AM