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March 10, 2006



Oh, I have been there, and all I can really say is, the bitterness will pass. You're doing all the right things - choosing to be happy, and trying not to let it fully take control. All you can really do now is just give it time, and you will heal, and the bitterness will eventually fade away.

I know, totally not the answer you were looking for. But just relax, know that it's normal, and know that it won't always be like this.


Would it help you to know that I used to be EXACTLY like that?

OK- I hope it doesn't take you so long to find what I've found, but I'm here to say that it does happen, sweet girl.

You're very deserving of happiness and you WILL find it. I'll be right here reading and waiting for it to come to you.



Hey hottie! Hope you don't mind me calling by unannounced - wow your hair looks amazing!

Uh, yeah so if you want the opinion of a total stranger....I think everyone has their 'dark thoughts'. I think that the real you is the one you want to be...the sweet, hopeful you.

I think that most of our 'men' angst actually stems back to dear old daddy...and as I'm working through forgiving mine for not being's helping me like the male gender a whole lot more. We tend to get stuck in cycles of being drawn to the same men...dig under the surface and it's dear old daddy. When we deal with the old makes room for new.

Ok how was that psychobabble for you?


Hey girlie...lemme just say you TOTALLY freaked me out by saying my name so often in that post. LOL :-p

If it makes you feel any better, I have no idea which one I am either. Worse, I think there are *definitely* more than two of me in me. LOLOL


Okay, Adele. I'm going to let it go this time but I happen to know that Angela's Dad was and is practically perfect in every way. Now her imaginary friends Babi and Shuta from pre-school days should be investigated thoroughly.


First, love the new look! Second, while you can't choose how you feel, you can choose how you act.....and you are doing that. I have certainly "been there, done that" as far as what you are feeling. It is hard to be all cheery and positive about others when you've just proven that it doesn't always work. Hang in there. Don't beat yourself up about how you feel, but don't let it drag you down into a black pit either.


Hm... I don't know if you remember this poem, or if you ever even had to read it in high school, but I did and I think about it a lot. I'm actually glad for this post because it forced me to google it so I could properly share it. Anyway, enough set up!

WE wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!

I think it's pretty self explanatory, but I like to think about it whenever I feel like the face I'm showing the world isn't the one that I feel inside, and, though it's frustrating, it's something we all do. It's not nutty, it's just human nature.

Never have seen that movie you referenced, though you have piqued my interest in it! Love you!


Yes, I think everyone has an Eve to some extent. Sometimes when I get really tired from smiling and being happy Eve wants to come out too. I think people who say there is no Eve are probably telling a big fat fib!

Are you thinking of Mr. Big and the album he left for her when you are listening to Moon River? :) I am.

This is a great post. I'm so glad that I was able to get back here to read it. Thanks for sharing! :)

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